Why Am I Fighting You?


Ezekiel 7:14 They have blown the trumpet, even to make all ready; but none goeth to the battle: for my wrath [is] upon all the multitude thereof. Ezekiel 7:19 They shall cast their silver in the streets, and their gold shall be removed: their silver and their gold shall not be able to deliver them in the day of the wrath of the LORD: they shall not satisfy their souls, neither fill their bowels: because it is the stumbling block of their iniquity.

 When we rebel against the will and commandments of God, we find ourselves involved in combat with the divine. Combat you say.  Going against Gods will for our lives and the commandments He has put in place, we are involved in ourselves in a war with Him.  Upon reading this text, I asked myself, “Why am I fighting You?”  In all of our pasts, we have seen God’s victories, both on paper and in person. We have born witness to the many last place finishers in the ring. We have watched in amazement as we have seen the fall from grace of the willing combatants that have dared to spare with you, become disillusioned, and then step into the ring with you.  We have seen the medics attending to them, watched the referee counting them out, watched them shake in fiend-like conditions, watched them walk the streets in search for the next conquest, finding themselves on a bed sick with a disease, seen them hauled off to jail merchandise still in the bag, watched the marriage fall apart from the lovers they have had, watched their prosperity divided in half.  We have seen the results of those who fight against your law and will, but yet I ask myself “Why am I fighting You?”

Picture from Google Images

Picture from Google Images

We know that you have not lost a battle. We know that you are all powerful.  We know that you are the conqueror.  We know that vengeance is yours. We know that you have all resources and that wisdom comes from you.  We know all of this, and yet we have to ask ourselves, “Why are we fighting You?”

Is it somehow that we are still believe somehow that the fruit from the trees that we sample are better for us than the fruit that you provide?  Is it that we feel like we are missing out on the adventure or some lesson or wisdom that comes along with the experience?  Is it that we still have doubt as to whether righteousness is truly the way?  The truth is that foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child, and we are your children, thus, from time to time, foolishness floats to the surface, and the rod of correction must beat it out of us.  Painful as it is, its just reality. Even us grown folks experience our own rod, and honestly, its very much deserved. All the things that we have and cherish are yours.  All the things we have acquired are yours. All the things we have been given are yours.  Please forgive us.  All the training that we have is useless against you.  All the money we have is useless against you.  All the degrees we have acquired are useless against you.  All the friends we have in our corner are useless against you.

Truly the blessings of the Lord bringeth no sorrow, but if we loose sight of the one that has provided the blessings, they can bring wrath.  I desire not your wrath.  I need not experience your hand against me.  I need not see your face turned from me.  I need you, and more of you than I already have.  You are the one resource that I can never get enough of.  “Why ye fightest Thee?” the old writers might have blogged.  I’m really not sure.  I guess we are all glutens for punishment.

Posted 9/8/07